life lately | 38 weeks pregnant

These past couple of weeks have been a whirlwind, truly. My pregnancy hormones got the best of me, so I thought it would be best to take a mini time-out. Not going to lie, it felt incredibly weird (but refreshing) to take a couple of steps back. I didn’t want to present this ‘false reality’ in an already ‘perfect’ Instagram world. Truth of the matter is — I wasn’t feeling myself.

Ever since I was a little girl, I’ve always known that I wanted to become a mom. Whenever I’m going through rough spots with my blog/business and feeling lost (happens to the best of us), whenever I’m doubting my purpose in this world, I’ve always thought to myself ‘you’re meant to be a mom, that’s your purpose’. I guess I figured I’d be on this 24/7 high with finally living out my dream, but as I find myself a couple of weeks away (38 weeks today!) that’s not always the case, and that’s okay.  Pregnancy is unlike anything I’ve ever experienced, and while I wouldn’t change a thing — it can be incredibly frightening/overwhelming. It can be challenging to navigate the last couple of months — just so much on the horizon. What will happen to my career? What will our travel plans look like (you hear the horror stories of traveling with kids, ha) and how are we going to afford all of this?! It’s easy to get lost in the ‘whats’ and unknown with anything in life. Especially for those that aren’t the best with change. Although, I am getting much better! My husband and I got married, bought a house, got a puppy (holy work!) bought a car, and got pregnant — all within a year. Again, wouldn’t change a thing, but it’s been quite the year for my little family. An amazing one filled with uncertainty and excitement. A lot of excitement. 

I was really hesitant to share this, because I didn’t want to come off as ungrateful. I’m incredibly excited for motherhood, but I always want to keep it real around here. I also think it’s important to note that it’s not always a 24/7 high, and it’s okay to go through the different emotions of pregnancy/feelings. It’s a lot to sort through! Most days, I’m beyond excited — but, some, I’m down. Side-note: My hormones are raging, I cried in the middle of the Target aisle yesterday. Super cute, ya’ll! I’ve always been good at listening to my body, so I took the last couple of weeks for me. Took a break from the social world to spend some much needed time with me, myself and I. I guess it was a pre-maternity, if you will.

Here’s an update on the third trimester: (better late than never!)

Feeling: Emotional, excited and tired! This third trimester has been exhausting. I find myself with no energy most days, and incredibly un-motivated which is frustrating. I have so much to do, yet sometimes find myself buried in the couch with a tub of ice-cream. I can’t seem to get enough food these days! I’m also feeling incredibly anxious for labor — I’ve always been the biggest baby with pain, so this will definitely be interesting. Send your tips!

Symptoms: I’ve had an amazing pregnancy. No morning sickness (I honestly haven’t even felt pregnant until these last couple of weeks, so lucky!) But lately, I’ve been experiencing really bad carpel-tunnel in my left hand. I’m wearing a really sexy wrist-brace, haha! The pain will wake me up in the middle of the night, and my fingers feel paralyzed. I’ve had some weird vision issues — the best way to describe it? It feels like I’ve been staring at the sun too long, and I start seeing spots/waves. If this happens while I’m driving, I have to pull over (it’s that bad!) It’s weird/scary, so I’m hoping it goes away after labor. Would love to know if any of you experienced this?

Preparing: The nursery! You guys, the nursery is done! I am so excited to share with you soon. It’s the first completed room of the house, and I’m really proud of it. My husband and I did everything ourselves, which makes it extra special. I had so much fun decorating, and bringing my girly vision to life. I’m so grateful to have a partner that’s up for everything, and his handyman skills are definitely improving!  We also installed the car-seat, and stroller. This little lady will be cruising in style. (Will be sharing more of that soon!)

Reading: My friend just sent me ‘The Happiest Baby on the Block’ and I’m really excited to dig in. It looks really interesting, has anyone read? I’m also starting ‘The first Forty Days’ which came highly recommended by a couple of friends. It really spotlights nutrition post-birth, and the recipes look super yummy!

Enjoying: The quiet. My sister just had a baby 2 weeks ago, and she’s telling me to soak up all of the quiet/sleep now! (although, my puppy doesn’t help!) I think that’s another reason I took some time away from social — I just wanted to enjoy some peace without all of the social noise.

Eating: Ice. OMG wtf is it with ice? I legit crave it. So curious to know if anyone else had this, too? It’s the weirdest. (Please share below, if so!) I’m also loving Italian Ice, steak & corn on the cob. I think I’ve consumed more corn on the cob this pregnancy than my entire life combined. Why is it so good?

If you’re still with me, thanks for sticking along! It’s been awhile since I did an update, so a lot to share. I can’t believe I’m officially 2 weeks out from having a baby girl! It still doesn’t feel real! Does it ever? Hmmmm, maybe the screaming/sleepless nights will change that! Can’t wait to share this journey with you in the coming weeks! xx